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Feeling Invisible? An Introvert’s Struggle with Belonging

Feeling Invisible? An Introvert's Struggle with BelongingAs I watch my teen daughter stressing over her appearance and posting selfies constantly, I’m reminded of my own teen years and high school and all that pressure to fit in. Now, with constant scrutiny in a very public way through technology, I think it’s even worse.

For adults, I wonder how different it really is though? We’ve got success on our minds and make decisions every day about what we will have to do to accomplish that.

Just as in high school, I think the success path that many people seek is still about fitting in (becoming who we need to be in order to be accepted).

At some level, we want to be seen as part of the “in group”, linked with “movers & shakers” in our field, or following a certain expert’s advice as if they’re some guru – and have learned that having these “connections” actually makes the success track easier.

So how does this work for us introverts? If you’re like me, not so well. Much of the pain in my life has been, and continues to be, about actually being seen – and feeling a genuine sense of belonging (being accepted as my authentic self).

I was reminded of this recently when I got my ego bruised. At one point in my career, I was working hard to play by the rules and was being noticed by all the right people as a result. But when I burnt out and decided to go my own way, all of a sudden I became invisible. (Actually, I chose to withdraw into invisibility at the time as a survival tactic until I could regain my energy and re-surface.)

Now, years later, my replacement is in a very high profile position that comes with accolades, respect, admiration, and a significant financial compensation to boot.

With my bruised ego came the immediate reminder that I was “the other – an outsider.” My mind automatically went to, “That could have been me, but because I couldn’t handle the pace, pressure, and the constant public nature of the work, I’ll stay stuck with the short end of the stick.” I blamed my introversion as if it made me defective. I felt anger and frustration with “the way the world works” (ie. extroverts win).

After I had a chance to get over myself and my little pity party, I was able to remember that I left because it was not the right fit for me. It sucked the life out of me. I chose a different road. My journey is to find, choose or create the situations/environments where I belong and flourish – naturally. And, in my forties, I’m still figuring it out.

As an introvert, I want to remain private but still feel like I matter – that people actually see me for who I really am, want what I have to offer, and care that I prosper. And this brings me back to the topic of shame that I have written about before. Because this issue of belonging is really an inside job.

“Shame is the fear of disconnection – it’s the fear that something we’ve done or failed to do, an ideal that we’ve not lived up to, or a goal that we’ve not accomplished makes us unworthy of connection.” Brené Brown, Daring Greatly

According to Brown, this shame is universal. Among the twelve shame categories that she introduces in the book, being stereotyped or labeled is one that I feel fits with introversion. It’s one thing when stereotypes and labels are reinforced in society. It’s another, and more debilitating, when we believe them ourselves.

To put yourself out there in a way that is just for social acceptance is not to really be seen for who you are…it’s just about fitting in…which is a very empty way to live. Belonging is something deeper.

But here’s the hard truth. Before we can feel belonging in the world, we have to love and accept ourselves. And that requires changing the belief in our defectiveness; that part of us we compare to others that keeps us feeling like we don’t measure up.

It requires that we are kind to ourselves: that we choose self-acceptance.

We all want to feel like we matter and belong, just as we are. See me! Acknowledge me! Choose me!

This is just another reminder that the answers lie within – and real change starts from the inside out. But I want you to know that you are not alone if this is a pain point in your life.

See yourself. Allow yourself to love what you see. Be vulnerable enough to share it. It’s not about anyone else, despite how much we want to find external factors to blame sometimes. This is our very own personal lifelong growth opportunity. Be seen!

Feeling invisible, defective, or like “the other” hurts. How does this relate to your own story?

It’s Time for Introverts to Declare Enoughness

enoughnessSadly, I think a lot of introverts have learned that we are simply not good enough as we are. It’s a trap that reinforces why we should stay invisible.

Being quite confident – at times even bold – I can go for long periods of time forgetting this learned inadequacy. But every once in a while, a situation will come up that quickly and abruptly reminds me that I’m not enough.

I don’t think right. Or communicate right. Or behave right. Or join in right. Or decide right. Or play the game right. I’m simply not right. Why can’t I just be more _________?

Why do we sometimes feel that we need to show up as “better” or “different” than we are?

We go to a place in our hearts and minds where we convince ourselves that we are defective and need to be fixed somehow. Only then will we be enough to fit in – to be normal – to be able to do it all – handle it all.

It’s time to stop thinking of ourselves as anomalies that need fixing. Instead, it’s time for introverts to embrace our authenticity in every moment, every day, in every way!

It’s time to declare our enoughness!

I don’t enjoy being vulnerable. At the same time, I know that it can be helpful. Because there are countless people who feel exactly as I do. It’s important to remember that we are not alone, even though we may sometimes feel like we are.

Being vulnerable in acknowledging a straying away from authenticity creates an opportunity to get clear and act with courage – to get back in harmony with our spirit (as inspired by Maya Angelou’s wisdom).

“Within vulnerability lie the seeds of greatness.”

Try this:

  • Find examples: Remind yourself of times when you were authentic and strong (when you felt good enough as is). I know you definitely have been.
  • Know that finding a fit is an ongoing process: You don’t have to change yourself. You just need to get clear about where you belong. Find your kindred spirits and get coaching support if you need it. Your greatness is connected to finding your place.
  • Get your brave on: Go ahead and declare, “Pfft, I’m not playing that game anymore”. Instead of judging yourself, get grateful, and then get busy being seen again.

Brene Brown has stated that the best way to remedy scarcity thinking is to move, not to abundance thinking, but to enoughness.

Enoughness. It just feels so right. Feel it. Declare it. Choose it.

Can you relate???